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How Grace Stevens' Gender Change Can Inspire Your Own Bold Leap

11/21/2016

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​Knowing how another’s journey can inform our own, I asked Grace Stevens to guest blog about her experience in getting unstuck, to live authentically. As shared from the main stage at the recent IFS conference, Grace spent over sixty years hiding and denying her inner truth…but finally engaged in a process the led to transitioning her gender at the age of sixty-four. I don’t mean to diminish the angst of switching jobs, starting a new company, getting that book written, or playing bigger/more authentically in other ways. But Grace’s story brings additional perspective that can inspire us all.

Live Your Truth, by Grace Stevens

When I returned to work on May 31, 2011, almost everyone who came to see me said some variation of “you’re so brave” or “you’re so courageous.” It was often immediately followed by, “I could never do what you did!”

Maybe yes…maybe no.
 
Whether they were referring my gender transition to live my true self at 64, or the 9 hours of facial surgery that provided me the peace of mind essential to that leap, at no time did I feel either brave or courageous. As I said in No! Maybe? Yes! Living My Truth:
 
Skydivers and base jumpers look forward to jumping into the void. Perhaps they are adrenaline junkies and get a great "rush" both leading up to and during their flight through the air. The people who do this love their rush, but they are also secure in their skills and their equipment and they--I hope--fully understand the risks they are taking and have a pretty good idea where they are planning to land.

I too, was reaching the edge of a cliff and was preparing to take a
leap. However I did not have a parachute strapped to my back. No matter how much I was preparing to take this leap, I had no equipment, no security and had no idea where I would land!

 
I knew that the risks included leaving everything and everyone behind, and that I had no guarantee what would still be there.  I also knew that for the first time in my life, I chose to live my own life, not the one that others wanted for me, or the one I thought others wanted for me, or the one that the culture was telling me I was supposed to live. 
 
Some months after my transition, my youngest son called. He was living and teaching in a middle school in Tucson Arizona.  He shared there were many men in their fifties who kept repeating stories about how they got married young and never really got to do what they wanted to do.

My son then shared with me that he did not want to get to be my age and realize he had gone down the wrong path in life.
 
Apparently my leap, my transition to live my truth had an impact on my son, to inspire him to live his true life.
 
It took me years of internal battling with all of my inner voices and the pain of losing every one of those battles before I found the inner strength to acknowledge that I was the only one who knew what was best for me.  When I was on the edge of that “cliff” and ready to leap, I did not feel brave or courageous.  I only felt that this was my truth and I no longer had the choice to deny it.  I jumped!
 
As Viktor Frankl says in his classic book, Man’s Search for Meaning:
 
Live as if you were living a second time, and as though you had acted wrongly the first time.
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-- Grace Anne Stevens is an inspirational and motivational speaker specializing in encouraging all people to find their truth and live their authentic life. She has written two books, and was selected as a Writer in Residence by Amtrak. In addition to her gender transition, after four decades in high tech, she returned to school at the age of fifty-eight and earned an MA in Counseling Psychology at the age of sixty-two. For more details, see www.liveurtruth.net -- and, also, additional perspective from Grace and others in comments below.

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Chuck Silverstein link
11/21/2016 09:49:44 am

Thank you Mark and Grace for sharing this story. This fierce integrity and authenticity, and the courage to honor who one is, I find deeply moving and inspiring.

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Mark Hurwich link
11/21/2016 11:39:09 am

Chuck, thanks for your note. In the interests of transparency, it feels useful to include one more share: about parts I have, but wish I didn’t…and the merits of bringing that to light.

When I floated the idea of Grace doing a guest blog, and she graciously engaged, I found a disquieting voice in the back of my head. It said, “but Mark, if you publish that, then people will associate YOU with a transgender person…do you really want that? Can you tolerate more unsubscribes?”

Despite the IFS conference theme of us all having those voices; the way to manage them is to bring them to light, rather than keep them in shadow, I found myself in denial. I said something like “so let’s both sleep on that” to give myself some time to process. It was at the end of a long day, so maybe that was prudent, but it wasn’t authentic.

I had some inner dialog with myself around that scared-to-be-different-part…another part that likes to show off in radical ways…and also a part (or maybe Self) reminding me of my own core intention: “preserve the expression of all beings.” It was a good dialog, and made me realize I wanted to have Grace write as long as the context was in support of what I’m up to, which she’s done above.

But it was a wake-up call. Had I not said something to Grace, our relationship would have been more superficial. I wouldn’t have had the insight to know still more what I really wanted her to write about, or the conviction to ask for edits if needed. And I’d have missed an opportunity to unearth a part afraid to be different, understand more about what it needed, and take advantage of a great learning opportunity.

I think there’s still more to learn and work on here. I’m glad for the lesson in the meantime, and the opportunity to not appear any more...or less..."authentic" than the reality.

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Debra Parisian
11/22/2016 09:12:47 am

It is a crucial time where stepping up to the plate to show support that can help bring about the change that is so needed. Thank you to both for sharing your story- sharing your truth encourages others to be brave enough to share their own truth.

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Grace Stevens link
11/22/2016 10:51:09 am

Thanks Debra,
Yes, I seem to have acquired this mission to share in hope of making a difference to some one....

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Jon Rice
11/28/2016 06:05:36 am

Mark and Grace,

I too thank you for sharing your stories and authenticity!

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Mark Hurwich link
11/30/2016 06:25:50 am

Thanks, Jon. Increases the bandwidth for authentic Self-expression for all of us, doesn't it?!

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Steph link
4/30/2019 02:51:49 pm

Thanks Grace!

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